This last weekend was something different to say the least.
My “girlfriend” and her husband whom my wife calls her “boyfriend” came to visit for a few days.
In our swinging adventures we normally play together.
We are a same room play type couple and never do separate rooms.
We do however have on exception now days and that is this special couple.
Why I mention that is because we pretty much ended up swapping spouses for the entire weekend.
More than the weekend actually.
They had been supposed to arrive on Friday, but they showed up on Thursday night instead.
My girlfriend was a bit frazzled about this because she was not ready.
She said she was a hairy monster.
That meant she had not done all her pre swinging special detailing that she normally would have and wasn’t ready to play.
My wife however kicked us out of the room (she was ready) and we ended up hiding in our bedroom.
I had not seen this gorgeous girl in almost a month. (we live 9 hours apart)
Nothing could stop me. I wanted her badly.
She did give in.
We all felt very happy for our extra Thursday.
Friday was spent at the beach. We played in the sand and looked in tidal pools.
We caught up on things and talked about lighthearted stuff and serious stuff.
My wife and her boyfriend needed a nap they said so my pretty girl and I went on a short hike in the mountains.
We talked and engaged in mental foreplay.
When we got home we found our spouses had done no sleeping at all.
They did seem in high spirits though… so we didn’t complain.
The night was approaching.
I was getting very excited.
I had a special treat in store.
You see my dear readers… I have a fetish.
It is costumes.
I get very turned on by certain types of costumes worn by certain types of girls.
My pretty visitor was just that sort of girl and she had brought just that sort of costume.
She went all out.
My wife (who is a hairdresser) did her hair and she got all dressed up for me as Blueberry Muffin.
If you are not in the know… that is a character from Strawberry Shortcake land.
We had been talking about this special date for over 3 weeks.
I was so excited.
Eventually she was all ready.
What I expected was sexy – What I got was amazing.
Lately I am thinking I should always expect amazing with this particular person as she never falls short of better than I can imagine.
We locked ourselves into the bedroom together.
She didn’t just dress up.
She played the role.
What I got was a naive young girl who just happened to be very naughty.
She wanted to taste my special candy… and said it “so nummy.”
We found her special spot and told her it was even more nummy.
She suggested we mix the flavors and then wanted to taste again.
“Mmm… they taste so good together.” She said.
We did a lot of mixing of our flavours after that.
It was a wonderful time for us both.
After cleaning up we all switched back for sleepy time.
The next morning was breakfast made by my wife with a tad of help from her boyfriend.
We all went to the lake for the day.
When we got home the girls made a big production of getting all dolled up for the evening.
We went out for a few drinks and a chat.
The chat turned serious and the discussion was about or odd relationship.
Mostly it was about how odd it was that we clicked so well and the even stranger fact that all of us felt attached.
It was not the average discussion a person would hear when sitting at a table with 4 swingers.
The “lifestyle” is not about emotional bonds.
We are all swingers.
We all enjoy nights out with others who like to end the evening naked in bed and have a few good orgasms.
We all admitted to having feelings of possessiveness.
Feelings of attachment.
Lack of wanting other partners much.
We even discussed the possibility of becoming exclusive at some point.
It was pretty heavy stuff.
I was non committal on the subject.
When home we didn’t waste much time.
My pretty swinger girl and I went straight to the bedroom.
We started getting into play.
I was about to start talking really naughty when she started talking about feelings.
She asked how much she should confess… I said to always be honest and tell all.
The sex was of the bonding variety.
Slow, sensual, with talking.
Then she said the L word.
Yes… Love.
“I love you.”
I had not expected that.
I was stunned and shocked.
My voice didn’t work and I couldn’t think.
My attachment to this beautiful girl was huge. I could not however return those words.
I don’t use the L word.
I have said it to 5 people ever in my life. Two of those people are my children.
My parents and siblings don’t get it.
It is a block. I can only say it if it is way beyond what most people consider love.
I can only say it when I know I will always feel it without any doubt.
I am not one of those people that says they love their dog or cat.
I’m one of those people that think “how the fuck can you LOVE an animal?”
You can’t. If that is what love is to you then we are not on the same page.
Love to me is special.
Part of being special is how rare it is. Part of love is that it is forever. It is sure. No doubt can exist.
My lack of response hurt her.
We talked.
She got angry, but then relaxed.
She called me some names.
She said she would just wait because she new I felt it too.
I could not deny it.
I couldn’t say I did and I couldn’t say I didn’t.
They whole situation was and is very confusing.
We fell asleep together.
We had sex in the morning.
We had sex later that day again before they left.
Whatever happened in-between I can’t remember.
My mind was struck dumb from her confession.
Two days later we talked about it on the phone.
She still felt a bit hurt.
She felt it was all her fault.
She felt foolish, and naive.
She felt as if she should not have said it.
She felt betrayed.
I said it was partially my fault.
I told her she wasn’t being foolish.
She said she would never tell me that again unless I asked her to tell me.
She would feel as she felt, but not say it until I desired it.
The rule was however that I would not ask unless I was ready to say it back.
I thought that a fare deal.
I felt bummed though.
I adored hearing her say it. I want to hear her say it.
Such a scary thing to care so much about someone when not everything is within your control.